Last night I had a panic attack. I got very upset quickly , then I calmed down. I was about half asleep , when I felt like my chest was caving in and then I started to panic. I was bawling after a few minutes as well. Panic attacks suck is all I can say.

I think maybe I had a panic attack because of me disappointment in myself . I'm almost 25 years old and I really don't have anything to show for it. I think I sabotage myself when I try to achieve things. I suppose I shouldn't compare myself to others my age. It's a really bad habit.

Sometimes I wish I could rewind my life and start all over. I wish I could go back and tell myself that I was making the wrong decisions.
Maybe I should look at the bright side of things .

In other news , today I tried a flan from the store. It tastes like pudding. Its pretty good I guess. I love trying new things.

I also watched The Happening on DVD . It was an okay movie. I liked the idea of the toxins released by the plants.

My local library hosted a book sale as well. I bought some Tad Williams books and some YA books. I'm not a fan of YA fiction , but it was science fiction and I collect all things science fiction.